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You talk a lot; and, yet, you say nothing!

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I want to go back to the time where I was drowsy, peeking out the car window in China, while the sun was beating down my leopard print pink tights.* Or when I was in the van on the way to JFK the morning we left for Florida. I want to go back to that moment wherein I traced the silhouette of the lightning bolts against the windows of the bus from Philly into NYC that summer night. I thought we’d outrun the thunder clouds. Nimbus? Cumulonimbus. We did, but half an hour later, the rain eventually caught up to us in the streets of Manhattan as we ran looking for transportation with our bags.

*I was six years old and visiting China for the first and only time.

7 months ago

April 19, 2009
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Carrie and Miranda’s fight, around 1:50. This completely parallels my two confrontations this weekend. I’m obviously Miranda. They’re both correct, they both need to hear it. Sex and the City, ftw.

8 months ago

April 6, 2009
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When we want to give expression to a dramatic situation in our lives, we tend to use metaphors of heaviness. We say that something has become a great burden to us. We either bear the burden or fail and go down with it. We struggle with it, win or lose.

Her drama was a drama not of heaviness, but of lightness. What fell to her lot was not the burden, but the unbearable lightness of being.

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MIlan Kundera in Unbearable Lightness of Being

What a lovely way to describe the state of not giving two shits about anything. 

8 months ago

April 6, 2009
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I’ve stayed up past 4AM for the past week. Little sleep. Work, editing, and nonsensical things. What a (four day) weekend. Confrontations, visits from Asian family members, about seven bags and boxes of cookies. Dinner, conversations, crying on the kitchen floor.

And then…tomorrow.

8 months ago

April 6, 2009
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TO-DO

  • Make Wiki entry for professor
  • Work on index for professor ii’s manuscript
  • Read for Ind Study tomorrow
  • Work on proposal for Tuesday
  • Grade papers
  • More to come..

8 months ago

March 29, 2009
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Uhh..I feel like masturbating. B R B!
— [redacted]

8 months ago

March 15, 2009
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I feel like I took a shit in my ass.
— DC

9 months ago

March 3, 2009
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Terrible, terrible time management has manifested itself as a physical affliction

TO-DO

  • Comps:
    • Marx
    • Durkheim
    • Weber
  • Comps: Methods
  • Read 100 pages for Ind Study
  • Grade student’s papers
  • Lesson Plan for Wednesday
  • Read for Globalization (probably won’t)
  • Make copies for Wednesday class
  • Crash
  • and
  • Burn

9 months ago

March 2, 2009
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STRESSED THE FUCK OUT!

9 months ago

March 1, 2009
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LOL(Z)

  • [redacted]: lol you're so silly
  • [redacted]: we went to movies and ate dinner
  • [redacted]: girls night out
  • [redacted's ex]: yea
  • [redacted's ex]: all the single ladies
  • [redacted's ex]: all the single ladies
  • {redacted's ex]: put ur hands up
  • {redacted's ex]: lols
  • {redacted's ex]: that kinda girls night
  • {redacted]: DM has a boyfriend
  • [redacted]: you're weird
  • [redacted's ex]: im weird?
  • [redacted's ex]: wow
  • [redacted's ex]: kinda messed up
  • [redacted's ex]: coming from a person who juss ditched me
  • [redacted's ex]: but ok?
  • [redacted]: as usual you think i'm out doing stuff
  • [redacted's ex]: no?
  • [redacted's ex]: but saying im weird
  • [redacted's ex]: at this momemnt
  • [redacted's ex]: doesnt really make anything better
  • [redacted's ex]: imma go fuck myself now
  • [redacted's ex]: since weird people do this
  • [redacted's ex]: ttyl?
  • [redacted's ex]: mayb if im in a good mood
  • [redacted]: lol i miss you
  • [redacted's ex]: i hope u throw up all the fish
  • [redacted's ex]: from both ends
  • [redacted's ex]: at the same time
  • [redacted's ex]: >=P
  • [redacted]: i hope so too! so i get rid of all the food i ate
  • [redacted]: i'm offended! why do you think i'm desperate jeeez
  • [redacted's ex]: im offended
  • [redacted's ex]: why do u flake on me
  • [redacted's ex]: jizz
  • [redacted]: i didn't flake it just came up
  • [redacted]: i'm supersorry
  • [redacted]: i will make it up to you
  • [redacted]: i'll treat you to a steak dinner next time!
  • [redacted]: :-P
  • [redacted's ex]: sure sure.
  • [redacted's ex]: i only had today free
  • [redacted's ex]: cus its presidents day tomrorow.
  • [redacted's ex]: next week i might be UNAVAILABLE
  • [redacted]: oh its fine cus im DEF unavailable until like march 8th
  • [redacted's ex]: EAT SHIT
  • [redacted's ex]: PLEASE

9 months ago

February 15, 2009